Sunday, September 03, 2006

12:20 PM

Tasha is starting to get on my nerves.

[WARNING. Bitch fit ahead!]

Okay, everyone likes her because she's so sweet and cute with that awesome smile and dimples. I like her too, actually. She's almost everything I want to be, tall, small frame albeit flabby, long hair, perfect oval face and dimples!

And I'm everything she doesn't want to be.

I have broad shoulders, a square face, short.

Every morning, I come to school with the intention of loving myself for who I am. I like my broad shoulders, I really do. It makes me look strong and powerful, not like a weakling little girl.

Know what she says about them?

"Broad shoulders make you look like a man. They make you look fat even when you're not."

As for my square jaw, well.

Its alright, I guess. I can't cut some hairstyles, thats all. I've seen tons of celebrities and models having this particular jaw shape. And when I try to point that out, she says "But they're stick thin so they look good with it." Is she saying that I can only look good with my God-given face if I'm STICK THIN?!

Sometimes, I wonder if she realises she's hurting my feelings. Or maybe she's just like that and she doesn't know. She claims I'm the outspoken one, and wishes to be more direct.

Pfft. My ass.

I don't see any reason to be stick thin. It doesn't equate to beauty, sucess or popularity. I don't even want to be a model anyway! I just like having photographs taken of me. o_O

Or maybe I'm just too sensitive. I am when it comes to body image. Its a war I'm battling here and she's not helping. Does she see me as a rival, I wonder? She's mix blood too. Frankly, she might be tall, great dimples and everything but I think I have better features.

So there. =D

_Pull the knife from my back' ;