Wednesday, July 19, 2006
8:40 PM
Gah.
I've been feeling low.
I usually don't like blogging about my personal life but its just so hard now. I don't expect pity just a little encouragment to keep going. :)
Monday was great. I ran for an hour (w/o stopping) and I felt great after that. It was as if I was washing all my problems away. I sprinted downhill, danced with the wind. I was finally doing something about my weight.
I was happy.
Tuesday was fucking emo lah. I hate being emo cause I don't want to be one. But I was really really depressed that day for no utter bloody reason! School was basically stupid. It was racial harmony celebration and we had to dress up.
Why.
Why does everyone have to drag me into EVERY FUCKING PHOTO?????
I try to smile. I try not to let such a trivial thing get into me. But everyone looked so happy and joyful. I don't want to ruin it. Wait a second, why should I even bother? No one could tell how I was feeling.
A picture tells a thousand words and do you know what my picture tells me? It shows a fat, ugly, stupid-looking girl. Yes, it does. Really. I'm under so much pressure. Smart, intelligent people surround me. Gorgeous, pretty people surround me. How can I live up to them?
I'm a nobody.
Not only that, there are some problems at home too. And my leg is killing me. I'm currently limping. Lol.
And like I said, I don't want pity and I certainly don't want to pity myself. So, my decision to stay positive and proactive came after crying my heart out. While waiting for Benjamin (he was late again!), I hid behind the wall and had a good cry. All this happened at night. o_O
In fact, I was still sobbing while I was jogging. Don't try this people, you'll have a hard time breathing. Lol. I kept thinking about what Sarah said, If you even feel like giving up, look up to the sky and aim higher. (Did i get that correct?)
(Sidenote: Jasmine, stop singing those songs that require a powerful voice!!!!! Stick to bubblegum pop. -_-)
Haha.
Aim higher.
Oh, I came to school really late to school today. And Mr Gabriel thought I came. He thought I went to TAF. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! YOU DUMB GIT! WILL YOU BOYS THINK I'M SLIM WHEN I'M ANEROXIC THIN??? FUCK MAN!
_Pull the knife from my back' ;
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
3:25 PM
Oh my god!!!!
Indonesia has some of the most beautiful actresses I can ever lay my eyes on. Better than some hollywood stars. And Singaporean actresses pale before them. Think Indonesians aren't very good looking? (Because of the maids we see working in Singapore...)
Think again.
Allow me to save the best for last. =D
Notice that she doesn't pluck her eyebrows and damn, she's drop-dead gorgeous. She's wearing a scarf too. Angel~ *_*
_Pull the knife from my back' ;
Sunday, July 16, 2006
2:42 PM
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH.
I want snow white skin. I used to have it when I was a kid. Sun is damaging. X_X;; Anyway, I have nothing much to say except I've added more stuff to my wish list. Yes, I know... how demading can I get?
Did any of you know that I always wanted to be a unicorn?
LOL!
Okay, random. I told you I had nothing to blog about.
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Who am I?
I am your constant companion. I am
your greatest helper or heaviest burden.
I will push you onward or drag you down
to failure. I am completely at your command.
Half the things I do you might just as well
turn over to me and I will be able to do
them quickly and correctly.
I am easily managed - you must merely
be firm with me. Show me exactly how you
want something done and after a few
lessons I will do it automatically. I am the
servant of all great indivuduals and, alas, of
all failures, as well. Those who are great,
I have made great. Those who are failures,
I have made failures.
I am not a machine, though I work
with all the precision of a machine plus
the intelligence of a human. You may tun
me for a profit or run me for ruin- it
makes no difference to me.
Take me, train me, be firm with me,
and I will place the world at your feet. Be
easy with me and I will destroy you.
WHO AM I?
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Peace out!
_Pull the knife from my back' ;
Saturday, July 15, 2006
10:12 PM
RIPPED OF ESTHER'S BLOG
five things you associate with the word:
Long:
running 10km
time allocated to do my English exams
waiting for... special stuff to happen. 0_0
the length of the blood vessels we have placed together. XD
uh, rulers. long rulers.
Love:
family.
friends.
money.
fashion.
myself.
five things i want to own?
a lime green car.
a great career position
all the clothes i ever wanted
long hair.
a great bod.
_Pull the knife from my back' ;
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
7:36 PM
I'm so pissed.
Who never even bothered to call.
I'm sick of waiting.
Sometimes, I'm surprised at how patient I can be.
_Pull the knife from my back' ;
Monday, July 10, 2006
11:23 PM
Oooooh.
He is just so hawt! =)
No prizes for guessing who I'm talking about.
*_*
_Pull the knife from my back' ;
Sunday, July 09, 2006
3:10 PM
Mweh.
I don't know what's up but I've been feeling delirious these days.
I felt like excercising.
I can't wait to begin eatly healthily.
I felt like writing.
Heck, I even felt like studying.
I talked non-stop with my mother. She said its because she fed me one too many chicken backside when I was younger. Lol. XD
Lalala~
I'm haaaappy.
I want this mood to last forever.
And, I've decided if I can't get into psychology, I'll probably go into nutrition science. Its weird but I think nutrition was meant for me, I don't say... find it very interesting but somehow, I just enjoy reading and learning more about it. Its just strange. 0_0
Oh, Wanda and I are going to do yet another photoshoot...
Its theme?
Food disorders.
Wanda gets to be aneroxic girl cause she's so thin... XP I'll do binge eating... haha. I wonder who should do bulimia? o_o Wait, Wanda can do that too... I'll do Night Eating Syndrome.
I love playing with food. *_*
Ooh, Cosfest is on right now but I was just too lazy to go.
_Pull the knife from my back' ;
Sunday, July 02, 2006
12:30 AM
TAKE THIS PEOPLE!!!!!
3 names i go by:
=> Nadiah, Naddie, Nad. <--- o_O
3 parts of my heritage:
=> Uhh... Chinese and malay?
3 of my everyday essentials:
=> food, water, money
3 things that I am wearing now:
=> spectacles, sleeveless purple tee, school shorts. = comfy!
3 of my fave musical artists now:
=> Darin, Jason Marz, Rihanna
3 things you want in a relationship other than love:
=> sincerity, passion, confidence
3 truths and 2 lies:
=> 3 TRUTHS: I love my family. I love money. I actually enjoy healthy eating. 2 LIES: I hate my friends. I love Principal of Accounts.
3 physical things about the opposite sex that attracts you?
=> Eyes, smile and body. Woot!
3 of your fave hobbies:
=> Eating, thumbing my feet against the floor, talking
3 things that you want badly now:
=> Superb O Level results, Fitness First membership and cottage cheese.
3 places you wanna go on vacation:
=> Sweden, Venice and London. =D
3 things you want to try doing:
=> extreme sports, online dating XD, horseback riding
3 people i would like to see taking this test:
=> Christabel, Wanda, Benjamin, Qianyi... I know thats more than 3 but wth.
3 things i look for in a potential boyfriend:
=> He has to be sincere, witty and romantic.
3 things i may want to be in the future:
=> A nutrition and image consultant, a writer or a part-time photographer.
_Pull the knife from my back' ;
