Sunday, April 23, 2006

12:00 AM

Woot!

I'm so happy. I learned how to make a membrane panal switch! XDD

Lol.

Argh. Poly life sounds awesome! I can't wait to go but what if I can't go? Imagine the embaressment I will face! Anyway, I have it all plan out! I will either take mass communications, biotechnical OR visual communication... however, for some odd reason... I'm tempted to take political science... considering my wish is to work for the UN someday and speak up for Islam. =D

And...

Is it actually possible?

Possible that I...

Found a new love?

A love...

Has someone taken over Darin's place?

-shocked-

THE HORRORS!



Jesse Mccartney!?

Lol.

No way.

Darin is still mah homeboy. =DD



-oogles-

I'm content. *sighs*

I want Darin's Step Up tour's hoodie!!!!!!! >_<

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Saturday, April 15, 2006

12:19 AM

Woot!

How is everybody??

I'm feeling delirious today... for some odd reason... I've been thinking of what to name my children. Lols!

Girls

Misha- Beautiful, pretty <---- me love! *_*
Kyda- preserved, strong
Zoha- Hope, Shining light.

Boys

Jibril- archangel of God
Firas- sagacious, pragmatic <---- me love! *_*
Aaryan- of utmost strength

Whee. Hopefully, I'll remember those names. Firas is such a powerful name... when I first heard it, a mental image of golden stallion galloping powerfully across the plains popped into my head. Think Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron. Lols. And the name Misha is just so graceful...=D

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Saturday, April 08, 2006

11:50 PM

All is resolved. =DD
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Your Birthdate: November 23

You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem. You're good at so much - you never know what to do. Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long. You are destined for a life of travel and fun. Your strength: Your likeability Your weakness: You never feel satisfied Your power color: Bright yellow Your power symbol: Asterisk Your power month: May

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Eagle Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale You are active, a challenger, and optimistic. Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal.

You Are 44% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side. Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

Who Should Paint You: M.C. Escher

Open and raw, you would let your true self show for your portrait. And even if your painting turned out a bit dark, it would be honest.

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as strong willed and stubborn. Overall, your true self is reserved and logical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.

You Are 56% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at high risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is very likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at medium risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is somewhat likely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You have a passion for everything - including sleeping. Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well. You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers. You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.

Your Luck Quotient: 62%

You have a high luck quotient. More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life. You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that. Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.

You Are a Fierce Femme

You have a wild side, and you aren't afraid to bring it out when the time is right. But you also know when to hang back and keep your "crazy chick" persona in check. In fact, some of your friends may be surprised to find out how far you can take it... You may look mild mannered, but it's all an act!

You're Confident...Sometimes

You can seem confident when the occasion calls for it But inside you may be experiencing a bit of self doubt A little more inner confidence could take you far... And convince others that you're as confident as you try to seem

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone. Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people. Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run. No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way. You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle. Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings. A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning. You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous People will stop and watch you when you appear Even though you're capable of random violence You are best known for: your power Your dominant state: performing

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

9:02 PM

Somebody kill me.

I don't think I deserved to live.

What kind of person am I anyway?

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Friday, April 07, 2006

11:57 PM

Satisfaction comes in various forms, be it sexual or non-sexual.

I'm disgusted with myself. My satisfection isn't sexual yet its disgusting as I derive it from the anger of others. I feel elated, basked in euphoria whenever I accomplished making someone mad even though its over a silly thing. Its like I can control their feelings, I have the ability to make them mad.

Funny, because I thought I've gotten over it.

I never wanted to hurt anybody but I just felt like it. I thought it was bound to happen anyway. I won't feel satisfied, otherwise.

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Saturday, April 01, 2006

9:44 PM

RULES FOR BEING HAPPY



God didn't promise days without pain,

laughter without sorrow,

sun without rain,

but he did promise strength for the day,

comfort for the tears,

and light for the way.



Disappointments are like road bumps,

they slow you down a bit

but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards.

Don't stay on the bump too long.

Move on!



When you feel down because you didn't get what you want,

just sit tight and be happy,

because God is thinking of

something better to give you.



When something happens to you, good or bad,

consider what it means.

There's a purpose to life's events

to teach you how to laugh more

or not to cry as hard.



You can't make someone love you,

all you can do is be someone who can be loved --

the rest is up to the other person

to realize your worth.



The measure of love is when you love without measures.

In life there are very rare chances that you'll meet

the person you love who loves you in return.

So once you have it don't ever let go --

the chance might never come your way again.



It's better to lose your pride to the one you love,

than to lose the one you love because of pride.



We spend so much time looking for the right person to love

or finding fault with those we already love,

when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults,

you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes.

Instead, you fight the mistakes,

you accept the faults and you overlook excuses.



Never abandon an old friend.

You will never find one who can take his or her place.

Friendship is like wine. It gets better as it grows older.



Remember the five simple rules to being happy:

Free your heart of hatred.

Free your mind from worries.

Live simply.

Give more.

Expect less.



No one can go back and make a brand new start.

Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

12:01 AM

I just watched a bollywood film titled Veer Zaara. Its a really beautiful love story. A legend. Whereby an indian man, Veer, fell in love with a pakistani girl, Zaara. Unforunately, Zaara was bethrothed. Her family told Veer to return to India as her father is a powerful politician and his reputation might suffer if the she married an indian. Her fiance was an egoistical man and was embaressed by Zaara's impudence. So he framed Veer by accusing him of being an indian spy. Veer can easily get out of this but the Zaara's fiance told him he would make Zaara's life a living hell if he did not confess to his "crimes" and thus Veer ended up in jail. Of course, the love story doesn't end here...

This is one of the songs in the movie- Tere Liye -Its been transalated.

For your sake, I live with my lips sealed.
For your sake, I live, swallowing all my tears.
But in my heart, the lamp of love continues to burn
for your sake, for your sake!
For your sake, I live, swallowing all my tears.
For your sake, I live with my lips sealed.
But in my heart, the lamp of love continues to burn
for your sake, for your sake!
Life has brought with it the chronicle of days past...
incomparable memories surround us now.
Without asking, I received so many answers!
Look at what I desired, and what, in turn, I received.
But in my heart, the lamp of love continues to burn
for your sake, for your sake!
What can I say? The world has shown such ill-will to me.
I'm commanded to live life, but without you.
How ignorant they are, who say you are a stranger to me.
How many wrongs we have been done, my love!
But in my heart, the lamp of love continues to burn
for your sake, for your sake!
For your sake, I live with my lips sealed.
For your sake, I live, swallowing all my tears.
But in my heart, the lamp of love continues to burn
for your sake, for your sake...

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It sorta represented his feelings when he went in jail.

So anyway, this is what I call true love. Love can be represented in many ways and it transcends all boundaries but as long as they love each other endlessly (people often mistake lust for this. -_-), its true. =D

By the way, Happy April's Fools! XD

_Pull the knife from my back' ;