Tuesday, February 28, 2006

6:14 AM

Okay, first of all.

Why isn't Sarah responding?

She blogged...

Shit, I miss all my friends. Someone respond!!!!
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I finally got my mice. Two males, two females. BAD MISTAKE! Mice breed like.... mice! But knowing me... I'm not separating them anyway. I suspect Chocolate (light brown) is already pregnant... Mum's gonna freak. So i named the two females: Chocolate and Tiramisu. The males are Muffin and Oreo.

Oh oh.

Benjamin, pay attention. Look at this.











HE LOOKS LIKE YOU!!!!!

I watched one of the movies he acted in, a disney movie titled Now You See It. His expressions and the character he potrays are so like you! And hey, you're cute! =D

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Friday, February 24, 2006

9:44 PM

I'm planning to keep mice as pets! I was thinking of 4 females... and they'll have the sweetest names: Candy, Mint, Muffin and hmmm... Sugar! Lol. Haha. =D

OMG!

This picture was found in wikipedia, one of the best of not the best encyclopedia found on the net. It shows my school, that short building! My block can't be seen but it is at the extreme riiiight. Haha!

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/0/03/Bedok_Reservoir_Estate%2C_Jan_06.JPG

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Anyway, I made a new friend from Virginia nicknamed Roz. We're fast becoming buddies, ideas on being pen-pals are under consideration.

I hope everyone's good! ^_^

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

1:23 AM

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Friday, February 17, 2006

9:33 PM

Didn't go to school today.

Is sick. *sniffs*

I have the common cold, throat infection, fever and maybe a little cough. I had a hard time falling asleep last night. Crept into bed at 10:30pm, toss and turned till 1am. Woke up at 3am. Woke up again at 6:45am. Woke up later at 10++am.

Gaaaaah.

I hope everyone's well. =D

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

8:34 PM

Happy V-Day peeps!

I actually received gifts today. A flower and lots of chocolates! People actually care about me. *cries* I wish I brought something for everyone...

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Saturday, February 11, 2006

11:36 AM

Death is so sudden.

My Baldie, a baby bird that I found more than a week ago died today, in my hands. I woke up, and found it in the box, barely alive. It was freezing, very cold despite Singapore being a very hot country.

I did my best to keep it alive.

But my best wasn't enough... yet again, I'm so selfish. I woke up a little ealier than usual today to go to the bathroom. I should have checked or fed Baldie... And to think the vet said Baldie was healthy...

When I first found it, it was just a few days old, naked with no feathers and very BALD! It was ugly too... As I took care of him, feathers started growing and he was starting to resemble a mynah.

Its all my fault.

Everything is my fault these days.

I love Baldie so much. I love him/her so very, very much.

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Friday, February 10, 2006

10:55 PM

Mr. Gabriel's gonna mark me down for truancy.

Allow me to elaborate although I must warn you, you might not want to be my friend ever again because you'll see how selfish and pathetic I am.

My class had to do our CIP (Community Involvement Programme) yesterday which involves organising a Chinese New Year celebration for the eldery. That was perfectly fine. I was a-ok. Anyway, before we went to the void deck, I saw Rashidah and Gloria practising their dance.

I joined in, I wanted some fun.

But I suck at dancing, its just not my thing. I tried, I really did but I can't seem to get the moves right. I just couldn't. Even Natasha and Suyanti could get it done. Somehow I felt like everyone would rather have me out. Rashidah was probably just being nice by saying she wants me in.

Call it my imagination.

Anyway, we had some time before we had to perform. That was when things started to get really weird. I was probably already under a lot of strain and stress without realising it. I prided myself of being able to be calm under pressure. I guess I was able to keep my cool by supressing all the negativity within...

So, back to our practise. As I've said, I was having trouble. Priscilla and Josslyn, who only saw our moves could even have some imput. I saw Suzanne really helping Natasha with the moves although she was very brief with me. They were having so much fun and I couldn't. I hate it! Hate it! Hate it!

I think thats when I sort of started crying. I rubbed the tears away. I wanted so badly yet I wanted to perform as well. I wanted fun, rememeber? And this is CIP, this isn't for us. Its for the eldery!

Without warning, I -snapped-.

I walked towards the back... no one notices me. They only saw me when I slipped past them.I moved faster and faster. I hear shouts. Natasha gave chase but I broke into a run before she could catch me.

We walked for awhile, ran for awhile. I cried somemore. Its all very vague. Natasha said something like cry if you want to. Like heck, I'm already crying! She gave me a hug. Didn't really help, only felt warm. Priscilla saw me and gave me a hug too before leading me back to the void deck.

Mr Gabriel either caught my grim face or my red eyes cause he asked whats up. Fucking asshole, trying to play casual. I remained the fortress that I am. Everyone left me alone cause they had their own duties.

Basically, I wondered about, thinking what went wrong. I heard the cheers and delightful screams. It gave me a frightful headache. I couldn't stand it. Fun comes so easily to them but somehow, I'm so moody. I must have looked pathetic.

I wanted to see the show but I don't want everyone to see my sorry ass. I went over to the opposite block and climbed to the second floor and watched from there. Everyone was cheering at something. No one noticed I was gone...

You know why?

Because I'M A NOBODY!

I MEAN NOTHING TO ANYONE.

Then, I saw John and Joshua going up and down the block, looking for me. Now, don't think they care. Teacher's instructions. I wanted to stay where I was but nevertheless, I went back. Mr Gabriel didn't look too happy.

He questioned me, thought I went home. Called my house. Blah blah blah. Fuck his words. STOP ACTING LIKE YOU CARE! YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO GET INTO TROUBLE CAUSE I'M YOUR RESPONSIBILITY. I can't believe I said 'sorry'. He went off again.

Joshua came over and sort of placed his arm over my shoulder. Said something, blah blah blah. Mr Gabriel came back. Said stuff, blah blah blah. Gonna mark me for truancy unless I give a good reason. Disciplinary actions will be taken.

Trust me, I know I come off as angry and bitchy right now but I was really, really miserable back there. I was like whimpering and my words couldn't come out right... I said something like, "I don't know.... something just *whimper*... snap-*whimper*ped." More crying.

Well, there's more to this little story but I promise myself not to put my innermost thoughts here. No one deserves knowing them. This is pretty much the best I can give to those I care.

My last words to those who pretend to care: Fuck you all.

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

6:56 PM

Hey people! =X

Tough week. ^^"

_Pull the knife from my back' ;

Thursday, February 02, 2006

10:50 PM

I'll be getting my new bag tomorrow, yayness!! =D
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Day of Chinese New Year was... interesting.

Unlike other chinese families, we do not visit each other's houses. We just meet at my Uncle's place since he's the eldest. We've been doing that for years. So well, my uncle shifted to Sengkang (is it?). Sengkang happens to be a maze, together with Hougang and Buangkok.

I mean, seriously!

My father got so fed up with the taxi driver who drove us round and round without admiting that he didn't know where the place is! My father called one of his sisters, Auntie Molly. Apparently they were lost too and so was Auntie Melissa! XD

The funny part is we all called each other instead of calling my uncle. Its like the blind is trying to lead the blind. In the end, we ended up stranded at Buangkok MRT station.

Both Auntie Molly and Melissa have found their destination. They have cars [mah]! -_-

Auntie Melissa was supposed to save us but well, they couldn't find Buangkok MRT station. >_< So in the end, we called the taxi and at last, we found our destination! =D

BUANGKOK


WHAT I'M WEARING DURING CNY


Oh yeah, before I forget.

I'm gonna add another 3 gorgeous women to my list.

Rachel Weisz


OMG! OMG! OMG! I'm in love with her. o_o She's gorgeous, gorgeous, gorgeous with capital G! She beats Jessica Alba hands down! Maaaaaaaan, I wish I look half as good as her! She's breath-taking!

Anna Hathaway


Not bad looking. Love her too. =D

RAVEN


I love her too. Would you actually believe she's a plus-size? And she doesn't care about that hollywood thingy about being stick-thin. Raven~

_Pull the knife from my back' ;